RocketHips316

I hate eBay. I hate people that outbid you before you even get your bid in. How the fuck do they do that?

I loved and lost. Whoever said "It's better to have loved and lost than to never have loved at all" never lost to some dress stealing Alaskan on eBay.

I have a love/hate relationship with myself. Well, at least with my weight. Being 5'2" and weighing much more than the 120 pounds I'm supposed to (at least according to the doctors' charts) I have my issues. Some days are better than others. Today being a good day. I went to this new store in the mall, Torrid, and absolutely fell in love. I've always liked the store, even years and years ago when they were still affiliated with Hot Topic. But It was the first time I had ever set foot in the actual store. Sometimes when I walk into a store I get the feeling that everyone is thinking, "What the hell is that fat chick doing? Does she actually think she'll fit into anything here?" Even though I only wear an XL top. I just have a big ass and wide hips.

But here I felt so accepted. The lady working at the time basically became my personal shopper. She went around and looked for things that would look good on me and set me up with a dressing room. I think I got a taste of what the richies feel like. It was great.

I also need to mention that my boyfriend is awesome. He loves me the way I am (maybe a little too much sometimes, haha) and is always telling me how beautiful I am. Oh, how I love him.

But basically, the whole point of this rant is that going there today made me feel awesome about my weight. I love being chubby. I've never wanted to be one of those stick thin girls with no curves. I love my curves. I love being soft and I love the fact that my boobs are bigger because of it. So if I do lose weight (like my doctor wants me to, of course) I'm just going to get back down to what I was when I first moved back this past summer. And dammit, I was still really curvy.

Konichiwa Bitches!

This is me being bored. Very bored. I'm just sitting here with my hair 1/2 done being bored. There's some calls that I have to make but everytime I call them no one answers. Do these people even effing work? But on the bright side I get paid today, tomorrow is flip-flop day at work (YAY!), and my birthday is coming up. I don't really have any plans yet but it's still a little more than a week away so we'll see.

Yesterday was good. I went to work then hung out at Matt's house b/c his parents are out of town (wink wink nudge nudge). Then we took a nap together. He's the sweetest guy ever. He left his door unlocked for me so I could come in and wake him up in bed. At first he thought it was one of dogs spooning him. Weird. But I guess the dog has done it before.

I have this friend that I've known for, well, ever. Long before I moved to Iowa. I haven't been to her house lately because I've been busy with work and Colin. But now I get the feeling that she's really pissed off at me. Now understand, She's about 15 years older than me and has a family of her own. So with her working and family and my working and my son our schedules tend to conflict quite a bit. Also the fact that she hasn't called me during this period make me wonder why she's putting all the blame on me. I love her death but sometimes she makes no sense. In the past she'll say we all need to go out and do something and she'll cancel at the last minute. That has happened A LOT. It just gets really irritating after a while.

A friend of mine just moved to Hawaii and I miss her terribly! Her boyfriend is in the Navy and she moved down there to be with him. Even though I haven't known her for a really long time she's one of the most beautiful people I've ever met. It's so sad. She won't be back until September.

There's so many people that I miss. People that I need reconnect with and people that I need to form a stronger friendship with. I need to get on that. The problem here is just that a lot of my old friends have scattered. Either into the city or different states. Then the people that I have met recently (since last summer) are scattered everywhere from Naperville to New Lennox. I wish I could just teleport from place to place. That would be so awesome.

Oh, and how the hell do I add those little blue links to pictures? I'm so confused!

I've never really been into blogging but it never hurts to try. So here I am. Let's see how this goes.....